cloudy day...
today is the first night that i actually miss home. not home so much, and not really my family, but some of my friends. i want company right now, but no one seems to understand that. i ask if someone wants to go for a walk, but they're not into that. *sigh* and i wish he would understand more. my best friend can't share emotions. i know he probably just doesn't know how to comfort me when i'm freaking out from lonliness, and not knowing, and being frustrated from school. perhaps it is lack of sleep. i don't know. all i want to do is sit on the grass with him, and not say a word. just think. and understand. and get a really big hug. funny how i miss those. maybe tomorrow will be better.

current mood: sad

current music: Goo Goo Dolls - Think About Me

oy... it's been a little while since i posted, so i suppose i'll have to fill you guys in! :) well... sunday i ended up going to central park to buy some black pants for work-- then i worked (hehe, fancy that) for six hours or so. i made 100 dollars in two days, if taxes don't get taken off. how fricken cool is that!

so... you may be wondering how i got through this ridiculous amount of work. it actually wasn't too bad, since james and some of my other friends were there to keep me company. james is a crazy kid. he told me all of these stories about how saturday night he got "drunk off his ass," might've made out with two people, almost hit a parked car, and passed out when he got home. i was like, "that's great james. reeeall smart." he also returned to asking me about my past boyfriends-- the other day he asked whether or not i had a boyfriend, and then sunday he asked how many i've had and whether or not they were serious. thank the lord oscar (one of the cooks) came in and interrupted our conversation. it was getting a little iffy.

i must say that working sixteen hours this weekend was definitely taxing.. my back is still killing me from that escapade. *sigh* but at least i made some money. and got to talk to people. and had ample time to think of such things as relationships and stuff. woo.

so moving on to yesterday... i had classes as usual-- spanish, chemistry, and calculus... boring stuff. the only thing that made my day eventful was the loss of my college id card... luckily some guy that sounded like he was speaking swahili picked it up off campus walk and gave me a call to return it. *phew* only the third week of classes and i almost lost my college card! oy. my brain sometimes, i worry about it.

and today so far has been very dull. trying to concentrate on homework, but it just isn't working.

and i've got a new thing to learn! i want to teach myself to see auras. that would be so cool. so i'm working on it with this website phil gave me... maybe it'll work out. so far my brain seems to be pretty good at focusing on stuff like that, so it might work! :oD

the rest of the day will be devoted to a chemistry lab, writing an english essay, going to biology, and possibly venturing to work to help out. they're short staffed today, and james sent out a petition to save them from suffering. so we'll see.

love all you guys in connecticut and elsewhere; hope college life is treating you grand.

current mood: tired

current music: Goo Goo Dolls - Here Is Gone

happy feelings. certain people (and especially one person) rock my socks. ;o)

yesterday was a doozie. i got up at 9, ate breakfast and washed my uniform, and went to work at 10:30 AM to 8:40 PM. i had to work a grand total of ten hours straight yesterday; it was tiring but i suppose, in the end, quite worth it. i got to know a little more about my fellow employees, since i'm around them all the time, and i didn't have to pay for lunch. plus, i got to hang out with james quite a bit; he's a funny character, if not a little iffy. he actually suggested today that i go to a party with him and christine; that since i'm not 21 yet he'd hook me up with a fake id. reeeall great idea. *sigh* i worry about him. he did say a good joke today. instead of saying something normal like, "i have to go pee" he said "i have to take my friends to the pool." we were all like wow. bad joke.

so after my shins were thoroughly shot, i returned to my dorm room, took a shower, and went down to the eagle's nest for a bite to eat. then, since i was feeling up to it at the time, we walked down to dodd auditorium to see 'chicago' for a dollar. i liked how they did the movie itself, but i didn't like the plot or the characters... i thought it was dumb how someone who had just escaped the death penalty could be disappointed that the paparrazi weren't taking her picture. ugh. get over it woman, it's not that important.

maybe i didn't like it because i was half asleep and had trouble following any of what was going on. i had a general gist of it, but nothing too complete. ah well. i might give it another chance later on in my life when i am more awake.

major plans for today: do laundry, go food shopping, maybe to central park, and back to work at 3:30. i have no idea how homework is going to fit in this weekend. wish me luck.

current mood: exhausted (roomate had to go to mass today; woke me up at 7 AM when i had gone to bed at 1... *sigh* i still love her though, and am in awe of her devotion to religion...)

current music: Counting Crows - Round Here

today, after classes, i gathered four other hallmates and went over to central park to see pirates of the carribean for the third time over. gosh i love that movie. yes, the plot gets a little hum drum after the first time you see it, but jack sparrow, you have to love jack sparrow. and will turner! i just realized how cute he is. i need a guy that would bandage my hand after it was cut by a rusty blade.... what? that's not a weird thought at all... :P

after that movie we returned here and caught the movie down with love, the very down with love that my oh-so-favorite actor ewan mcgregor plays in!! woo! and i loved it. mostly because of him, but hey, some of the other parts were good. ;) ewan does a terrible hick accent though. i was killing myself. he should definitely stick with the scottish brogue.

then it was off to the eagle's nest with anna, kristin, natalie, sally, esther, and kati for some good mozzerella sticks and french fries. i need to start eating healthier. my stomach is beginning to retaliate against the fried foods and lack of vegetables.

and today was a beautiful day!!! nice and cool and sunny.... i felt like i was in connecticut once again, instead of broiling down south. funny how the weather can influence your mood.

so yes, contrary to this blog's opinion, this entry is really for friday, and not saturday, because well, i'm typing it at 1:30 in the morning and consider it to be "today's" events. alas.

and now, to bed!

current mood: satisfied

current music: Nine Days - Back To Me

~and he said love~

today in biology i had a moment of de ja vu... i was sitting at a table, drawing a diagram of the 9 to 2 arrangement of microtubules in a flagellum, sitting next to the same person i had sat next to before... whenever it was that i had the incident the first time. her name is ellen, and i only met her a week ago.... she's from new mexico. how bout that? is it really true that we are living events again? or is it just that we knew the outcome of something so trivial before it actually happens? also in biology today (news reporter voice) i got to spit in a test tube! woo! and, contrary to some popular opinions, my saliva was deemed normal. no presence of starch or sugar. :oP

and! natalie's grandma can see auras. do you know how fricken cool that is? turns out natalie's is gold. i want to know what color mine is. that'd be awesome.

current mood: energetic

current music: Third Eye Blind - How's It Going to Be

imagine a world....
Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.


be an individual. be in love. both are equally satisfying. ;o)


~experience is the key to living~
and i thank you for that

*hugs all around*

i believe i should go to fortune cookies anonymous. i'm seriously addicted to them. i must have ate around one hundred of them yesterday; i've never been so hyper in my life. crazy stuff.

in other news, i've started a daily exercise regimine! woo! go me. the past two nights, at 9:00, i go running through the dark residential streets of fredericksburg, hoping that i won't be raped, assaulted, or murdered. not that i would, i'm sure, but being nervous makes you run faster. i have to burn off those fortune cookies somehow!

current mood: thoughtful and longing

current music: Goo Goo Dolls - Black Balloon

"if everyone demanded peace instead of another television, then there'd be peace."
~John Lennon

i had posted this quote on my door, and one of the people in my hall wrote "or we'd have a bunch of angry people with no peace and no television sets." she missed the point completely. if everyone longed for the same thing, it would happen; and if only a few joined the struggle, it would fall apart. the fact that people would have no television sets would be irrevelant. arg.

i have an incredible amount of friends. i never thought it would work out this way; that i would get to know so many people in a matter of two weeks. there's kati, natalie, graham, john, james, victoria, lindsey, kristen, esther, sally, david, anna, and andrew; and, to a certain extent, molly, lindy, katie, rebecca, and suzanne. i'm proud of that. and of course, there are still all of you guys back home :)

and last night, after watching ferris bueller's day off (go cameron!) my R.A. gave me a HUMUNGO bag of fortune cookies. so i'll be eating them for a while.

current mood: thankful

current music: Goo Goo Dolls - Slide

current fortune: "If the shoe fits, it's probably your size."

makes sense, doesn't it phil? :P

can i get some silver ware?
tonight was a long day at work. i got there around three and helped prepare the dining rooms for dinner filling up napkin trays and wiping down tables. seacobeck opened at four, and for the longest while we had no more than thirty people inside the dining halls at a time-- WICKED slow. it came to be about six thirty and all of the dining staff were pretty happy because no students were there, and hence there was not much work. we were to close up at seven, and were like hey, this is pretty great. but students possess a sixth sense that allows them to know when the worst time to eat dinner is. they piled in, tons at a time, around six thirty; meanwhile, we had little food left and were practically scraping bowls while yelling at the cooks to hurry it up and send out food. it was so overwhelming we could only deal with one dining hall at a time (we were so incredibly short staffed) so we ended up closing one of the rooms and transported what was left of its food. ugh. it was so tiring, to get everything clean, keep on top of trays, silver ware, and plates, to keep the food trays filled up so people could eat.

hardly any people were on shift tonight... gracie, a woman who works on the dish line, was so incredibly overwhelmed with work that she came out, sat down, and almost broke into tears. i felt so bad for her-- luckily, after we were all finished with cleaning up the rooms following dinner, we were able to help her, and she was much happier. sheesh. what a day.

and i met a new person! his name is andrew, and is of course, as most people are around here, from virginia. it was his first day on the job, so i showed him around a bit-- and guess what he said to me! that i have an accent :P i was very happy at the thought of that. accents are cool.

and today has been a wicked unhealthy eating day for me. i had a veggie burger, four chocolate chip brownies, a caramel frappucino, and an entire bag of sour patch kids for my meals. you can say my stomach, as well as my body, is not feeling so well. i'll have to focus on eating more nutritious comestibles...

what else can i say? yesterday my roomate and i, before i went to work, went to central park and ate at t.g.i. friday's. after that we went and got two fish-- my roomate's one is named "skip" and mine is "spot killer." i told this to james today, that we had two fish, and when i asked him what he thought my fish's name was he said "james?" haha... no. well, it was funny at the time.

that's about all for my stories of today. the only other exciting things were that i got my beatles poster to stay on the wall, phil's song (see current music) played on the radio while i was serving, mozzerella sticks were on the menu, and i got to mop a floor. yup, that there is some good times. and now, to bed!

current mood: satisfied

current music: Simple Minds - Don't You Forget About Me

Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on...
...Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby...
...Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security
Don't You Forget About Me...

As you walk on by
Will you call my name?

Always and forever.