lose yourself in the music, the moment, you own it, you better never let it go
today was a very busy day. tied up some loose ends, did some errands, got things done i had to do... sadly i didn't have time for it all; still have to go to dining to straighten out my paycheck and to the post office to mail a letter. and laundry. anything but that. arg.

so i went to a meditation club meeting today with my friend salli from next door; it was pretty cool, like a lot of the stuff phil tells me about was kind of mentioned in the meeting; stuff about reaching your "higher self" and separating from your physical body. it was pretty okay, but i had trouble meditating in that room... not only because it was really bright (the lights were on) and there were weird noises, but also because i have trouble letting my guard down around people. so i couldn't "let myself go". i did, however get somewhere; i saw a mist of blue and green which was pretty nifty, and she said to concentrate on a word and repeat it to focus-- mine came as the sound of ocean waves. a bit unique dude. it wasn't a word. and i totally can't write tonight. arg.

i guess the coolest part of today was calling up phil; i really miss him a lot and it was nice to hear his voice and talk freely with him. gosh, i grow closer to him everyday. i don't know if he feels the same way, but it's awesome. i love knowing him. and talking to him. and telling him my fears. and loving him. and knowing that he loves me. it's just awesome.

and i am really tired, as you can probably tell. did this entry even make sense? ah well. it's part of the fun.

current mood: satisfied, but tired

current music: Eminem - Lose Yourself