so close, no matter how far....
four more days to get through, and then i am home!!!!! :oD the closer i get to saturday, the slower time moves... but it's coming, and when it finally does, i'm going to have so much fun! saturday morning i'm taking the train home with lindsey (aka swish) which will be seven hours of joking goodness, saturday night i'm escaping my parents and going to squadron line park with phil to er.. umm.. look at the stars, of course... ;o), sunday i'm eating real food, seeing my grandma, and who knows, maybe phil will come in there once again... hehe, and this will sound a bit redundant, but on monday phil and i are going to go up to talcott mountain and look at simsbury from the edge of a really cool cliff. so excited!

and now, sadly, i must write an english paper. oh yeah! one more side note! i finally got a live journal code, so my blog will be moving to a hopefully much cooler server :oD yayy!!!! i'll let you know when i get it up and running....

current mood: awake

current music: Counting Crows - Round Here

woo!!!!
today is turning out to be such a cool day!!! i is happy. :) This morning I woke up to the perfect temperature, very chilly in the morning but about seventy by the time midafternoon comes around. something that i was worried i would have to deal with over fall break was also resolved, so i am very pleased about that. AND kati and i walked downtown this morning in comfy clothes and big sweathshirts to get an awesome breakfast at beans in the burg (my favorite coffee shop) and i got my favorite frozen mocha thing and a cranberry nut muffin. yummo. later is also going to be cool, we might return downtown once again to go to a little farmers market to pick up fresh fruits and veggies, maybe a pumpkin or two, because they're so cute! and then, after we return, we're going to stop at giant to pick up an icecream cake (shhhh) for a surprise birthday party for kristen. i'm thinking of getting candles and taping drawn flames on the ends, since we can't have fire and all. it's going to be a blast. hopefully work at three thirty won't spoil the good day! and now, to desk duty and chem homework! woo!

current mood: really excited and happy!

current music: Elton John - Rocketman

long time no post. well, truth is, i don't have much to say-- the college routine is pretty much becoming the same... go to classes, do homework, get food, talk to people online, watch buffy the vampire slayer, go to bed. nothing exciting. about the only cool thing that happened this week was my breakfast on wednesday morning, i had my favorite honey lemon green tea and an apple turnover. yum.

and i suppose i have also been thinking a lot. mostly about stuff phil tells me; and about this 'nothing else matters' song by metallica. it randomly popped into my head the other day (i haven't heard it in over four years) and it has so much relevance to my own life is incredible. no coincidence. phil said something interesting about this, that maybe metallica had wrote the song so that one day i would understand what he talks about. it's a hint from the universe so to speak.

it's weird. like i used to think about what phil told me like i think about a lot of other things; just accept them as an idea and play around with them a little bit. but now, since i've been talking to him more, i've noticed that a lot of what he says actually fits into life; too bad the ideas aren't that widely accepted, but as i promised him, i'm working on talking about it. i never thought i would be a philosophical person :oP and i don't even know if any of this is making sense. maybe i will write about what he tells me soon. i'd like that.

anyhoo, my roomate is concerning me a bit because she decided that she would make a fort with my bed sheets (i decided to change the look of my bed today). it turns out that doing so helped her concentrate on her application essay to be a teacher. strange how things like that happen. and now, i am ready to start the day.

current mood: blah

current music: Matchbox 20 - Real World

i am so wearing a sweatshirt, long pants, sandals, and cool socks today. i love fall!! *does sally's excited clap*

current mood: excited and ready to start the day!

current music: Metallica - Nothing Else Matters

a joke.
why don't the israelis want to listen to bush's road map plan?

because the last time they listened to a bush they were lost in the desert for fourty years

i miss my puny little state!?
not much has been happening... yesterday i went downtown with kati for some breakfast at beans in the burg, which was a very nice spot to sit and chat. i had a good time anyway, drinking my coffee freeze thing and eating a chocolate muffin. after that we walked back to campus, and i chilled in my dorm room for a while, watched ten things i hate about you, listened to music, and talked online. then about 3:20 i headed over to good old seacobeck, the place of employment i love oh-so very very much. it wasn't too fun yesterday though... the people there are kind of stand-offish ever since i refused to join the rugby team. it isn't because they want me to play the sport, i mean, the sport is fine, but it's because they want me to join their parties they have after the games. i'm so not in to that stuff. i know i would be so much cooler if i actually did drink and hang around with the upperclassmen i talk to, but i think the idea is just stupid. some of them have the potential to be good friends, but if i have to drink to reach that level, it's not worth it. so i was feeling kind of lonesome, even though i had a few friends there, like latricia my hotline buddy, and people stopped in and said hello. at least there are other people who love me.

speaking of love, i had a couple very good conversations with phil over the course of the day. :oD he actually kind of admitted he missed me, saying he wished he could see me more-- i think we're both counting down the days until i am back home. we have the weirdest story of meeting each other i know, with that random phone call over the summer, and me trying to deal with the incredible oddness of his mind... which was a little overwhelming at first, but once you understand what he's trying to say, things get a lot better. and he mentioned the word boyfriend in a sentence, casually but he did, which is so not like him. but hey, i'm not complaining. :oP phil's a good lad. and he stayed up until eleven talking to me online last night! that is definitely a sure sign of specialness.

and woo! i'm excited for classes today! a spanish test and a chemistry lab report coming up... oh what fun.

current mood: happy

current music: Counting Crows - Round Here

did someone say irish pub?
so yesterday my parents and i took a trip into dc. we drove in our little red hot rod rental car up to springfield, and caught the metro into the city. we got off at the smithsonian stop, walked around the air and space museum for a bit (my favorite! AIRPLANES RULE THE WORLD!!!!), and then grabbed some lunch at this little irish pub. i love irish pubs. they're so quaint. when they're not iffy. after that we ran around the american history museum for ten minutes before it closed; that was like the quickest tour i've ever gotten.

AND while in dc, in addition to seeing all the wicked cool airplane stuff in the air and space museum like pictures of f-14s, an f-2 fighter, the spirit of st. louis, and the apollo spacecraft, i saw a mounted policeman!!!! it was so exciting, and his horse was awesome. *melt* i hope i didn't make it blatantly obvious that i was staring at him for like ten minutes... :0P

there were also lots of pigeons!!!! i have a thing for pigeons. they're awesome.

and today i have work and a chem lab report to do! crikey i'm excited.

current mood: good

current music: Barenaked Ladies - Pinch Me

mmmm... green tea....
yesterday my parents came up to the college and hung out with me between classes... they had flown up thursday night to hang with me since parent's weekend was canceled last week due to the hurricane and all. so they woke me up by calling at 8:36 AM (why i remember the exact time i don't know), drove here and took me out to breakfast at IHOP, where i had an awesome bagel with cream cheese. not the small stale ones with unflavored butter in seacobeck. it found it amusing, however, that i'm able to last about four hours on a seacobeck bagel without being hungry, but i lasted about an hour after i ate that 'real' bagel. weird. real food goes right through me. :oP

so yeah, then i came back here for spanish, which kind of sucked cuz i was semi-late for class... (hey, my watch said 12 on the dot when i got there), and i forgot to do my homework, we had to make some family tree or something. alas. life goes on.

so after espanol my parents came once again and took natalie and i out to lunch at applebee's... we both got chicken fingers and they were yummy!! mozzerella sticks found their way in there too somehow... good stuff. came back for chemistry, had to break the news to graham that i can't go to the national zoo on sunday because kostya is convinced that working would be so much more exciting than seeing some goofy animals at the zoo... *sigh* guys just don't understand. after chem, i hung around here a bit, ate a chocolate pudding, and once again accompanied my parents in the car. we went downtown a bit, i showed them all the places we hang out, like goolrick's pharmacy, the little irish shop, the irish pub, ben franklin's, and cards and cones. once we were bored of that, we drove down to central park and bummed around borders and old navy before going to eat at the outback steakhouse. i got my sweet potato and i was happy. :0)

and i also opened a checking account yesterday! woo! put my paychecks in there... i'm making pretty good money, about 120 dollars every two weeks. not bad at all, in my opinion.

erm, so yeah, then i came back here, chilled with phil online a bit :O), and went next door to watch another buffy episode. then i took a shower, went to bed, and dreamed a weird dream. but maybe that'll come later.

current mood: good

current music: Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There

i saw you riding your bicycle down william street!!
he was normal today! and i feel loved! and happy! and only sixteen days until i'm home! woo!

as for the rest of the day, it was, well, quite nice. i didn't have class until six, so i read this book phil told me to read, walked downtown with kati and got a strawberry milkshake, i cleaned our room in preparation for my parent's arrival tomorrow, did laundry, erm... all the stuff that is really unimportant in the overall scheme of things, but seems like a necessary part of the world at the time.

and sally and i just laughed at a really big joke that shouldn't of been a joke at all. and my abs hurt. the russian saw me riding a bicycle....

current mood: hyper

current music: Santana - Why Don't You And I

another beautiful day... 75 is THE perfect temperature, not too hot, not too cold, nice breeze-- one of those days where i can cuddle up in a sweatshirt and wear socks with my sandles and smile.

current mood: happy

current music: Live - Heaven